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12-24-07 6:29 AM friends response to my encouragement

Dear Ralph,

Thank you for wanting to help.

I have finished writing letters to those I wish to say goodbye. I worry the most about my daughter. She is the person who loved me and trusted me as if she could see my soul and from the first moment her tiny fingers wrapped around my pinkie she owned my heart.

I never experienced love so pure as I received from my Baby Girl. She is a mom now. She has four gorgeous children of her own. Her oldest is six.

Tonight I was Santa out in the yard. They heard the Bells and peaked out there windows. Santa was in their very own yard with a big bag of toys. When I saw them peaking out the window. I gestured with my hands folded by my head for them to get to sleep. They disappeared in a flash. Later my daughter told me the oldest one jumped into bed and squealed ” MAMA HE can’t see me awake”.

They were so excited they were trying to keep their eyes closed, with big grins on their faces. After that I went to the apartment of some folks that I know don’t have much. He has a security camera set up on his porch due to the neighborhood. I let myself be taped by the camera while I unloaded a bag full of toys and Little something for mom and dad.

Last year he suspected me of doing this but he didn’t have a camera. I think they are going to have a surprise when they see the tape.

He is a hard working young guy. I know he wants there to be honor and dignity in the world. Unfortunately he thinks it is in that phony racist crap.

I hope I have been able to make a dent in his rigid thinking and show him a different way to view people.

Anyway I keep drooling on.

I do thank you again for wanting to help but I really think I have gone beyond that now. I still have a few weeks before it’s time.

Oh I just remembered. If I may droll on a bit more.

Last night I could not sleep so I went for a drive. I drove most of the night. About 2:30 AM I found myself in a restaurant That I have not been in about 18 years.

I used to go there when I was a kid 40 years ago and you could get 5 cheeseburgers for a buck. I was a singer in a rock band and we used to practice in a guys basement who lived just across the alley from the restaurant.

So I got a cheeseburger and a cup of coffee under $3. I live about 70 miles from there now so I don’t go there anymore. I was kind of eerie.

Merry Christmas